"Stranger's Song"

Idealism has no place in this world anymore save for showing us how far we've fallen. Happiness can be found at the novelty store (right next to the whoopy cushion). An artist paints a picture of a scene. This scene becomes reality. If that's what the majority believes then that is how it should be. In this world of make believe no one really knows what's going on. We all try to percieve but we just keep holding on to the words of a stranger's song.

Communism has risen and has fallen down. Nothing on earth can stop us now. The rich man who lives accross town has figured out exactly how. We've gotten used to the finer things in living, but we forgot to pay the bill. We need to think of the message we're sending to the "future of the world." In this world of make believe no one really knows what's going on. We all try to percieve but we just keep holding on to the words of a stranger's song.

We've grown to love each other. We've grown to love the same sex. We make peace with our brother, yet even still our soul is vexed. So we use contraception to protect against H.I.V. It saves our lives in our perception (such a good excuse for immorality). In this world of make believe no one really knows what's going on. We all try to percieve but we just keep holding on to the words of a stranger's song.

[actual date unavailable]

"Life"

Life is agame of ups and downs. I t grabs you, lifts you, & throws you down. Lord, I come to you, forget my daily bread. Just forgive my sins then kill me dead.

I know that I am chosen by the Father above to do his will and show his love. Besides that what am I doing here? To live another year - year after year?

"Who are You?"

Thoughts start to enter my mind. They've come a stranger to my heart. What to think of what I find? What to think of who you are? I know your story. I've been to your church. I've heard of your glory and I've seen your works. But I don't know who you are...in my heart...Jesus come!?!

[actualy date unavailable]

"I Miss You"

Dear Love,

I look into the mirror now and all I see is a sad face. My heart - it had so much joy before. Look inside me. There's not a trace. I'm thinking back to the last time I saw you and I remember the moment I lost you. If you can hear me now I just want to say...I miss you every moment that your gone. I miss you. Every second seems so long. I never thought that this is how it would be. I never thought that you would leave.

Sincerely, and with much love,
Loneliness

[actual date more like 1992-1993)

"Doubt"

At times I doubt
And with this doubt comes an instability
In everything I do
Sometimes I think
That I've lost my faith when I'm only unsure
Of who I am in You

Is it lack of sleep, too much to do
Is it me not knowing what is true
Is it Satan playing me for a fool
Is it nothing more than feeling blue

Where, O where do these feelings come from
Why, O why do I feel so low
Peace of mind, I think I need some
Love of God, I must come to know

circa August 1993

FRIEND

What did you call me for
I don't have much to say
How long have I known you for
What brought us together anyway

Some kind of spiritual connection
Some sort of common bond
Maybe a recollection
I knew where you're coming from

Does it matter anymore
Did it matter before
What is the matter and the fact thereof
I think it is friendship and a thing called love

circa 1993